“Your Endless Edge” by Jodi Lundgren

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Your Endless Edge: a Glosa



By Jodi Lundgren








What if I was wrong?



If after years of creeping away



for mere minutes in your peculiar half-dusk,



half-dream, your endless edge
— Karen Enns, “Questions for a Muse”







We shot a gap



barely car-width



between unlit oak trees



on a two-way street



the open-sided jeep



blaring Tears for Fears.



The danger electrified us,



no shock absorbers



our tailbones slamming.



What if I was wrong?







Adrenaline-soaked events



might reverberate years later



for a purpose I hadn’t guessed—



not to make me wonder



if a past love could’ve lasted,



or how a wiser person might’ve acted



or whether, by post-#metoo standards,



I consented. Maybe reliving them pulls me closer



not to the people, or to healing; what



if after years of creeping away







to reminisce, it was the muse who drew me?



The cops were busting the party when you arrived,



straight from work, sober, with that Gatsby smile,



your friend, my date that night, too drunk,



the offer to take us home in your jeep welcome.



Generous, opportunistic, fun-loving,



predatory, the lines too fine to draw,



my date blacking out, your kisses skilled,



the scene would last for seasons in my memory,



for mere minutes in your peculiar half-dusk







basement suite at your parents’. Weeks later,



engine revving, I pinned you in my headlights



all Jodie Foster in The Accused . You plucked



a crisp hundred from your wallet and rolled it into a tube,



my only brush with coke until I wrote my novel Blow .



Thank you/I’m sorry; you’re welcome/it’s okay,



I’m telling you, all of you, my younger selves included,



those raw times I had to mull for meaning inspired me.



Even my first glosa has emerged from there, see?



My half-dream, your endless edge











Copyright © Jodi Lundgren



Jodi Lundgren is a settler of English and Danish ancestry who lives on Lək̓ʷəŋən and W̱SÁNEĆ territory. Her previous publications include the novels Touched (Anvil) and Leap (Second Story). Her poetry has recently appeared in Dear Vaccine , edited by Naomi Shihab Nye (Kent State UP) and in Even So, I Sing , edited by Lorna Crozier (Nose in Book). She is a past writer-in-residence at Thompson Rivers University, where she teaches in the Open Learning division.







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